Wednesday, December 12, 2012

It's That Time of Year Again.

Well, it's almost Christmas. Tanner and I have the tree put up and decorated, the icicle lights out up around the shed outside, most of the presents are bought and wrapped, the plans are made for heading to Dallas for Christmas, and everything is settling down a little. I can't believe it's already this time of year!

It's weird to think back on last year. The 14th of this month will mark the day that I picked up Tanner from the DFW airport and we first saw each other in person. Who would have know that less than a year later we would be married!

I'm working on the 12 days of Christmas for Tanner. I got the idea from a fellow blogger who said she and her husband enjoyed it emensely. So, I'm giving it a try. Unfortunately, I didn't start off so well. We've technicly been celebrating the 1st day of Christmas since Saturday night. I couldn't be patient. I was going to make him a ice cream cake, (recipie via Pintrest) which is just two layers of ice cream bars, cool whip, and carmel topping, this Thursday. However, he wanted ice cream and I really wanted to find out if the "cake" was going to be any good, so we ended up making it together and eating it after it had time to freeze for a bit. Needless to say, it was delicious. On the down side, now I have to wait until this Friday for day 2. -.-

That's pretty much all that has been happening. I lead such an exciting life. :P Ha ha!

Keep On Keeping On!


Thursday, November 22, 2012

Happy Thanksgiving! (Belated Thanksgiving, rather..)

I can't believe it's already Thanksgiving! I've been married for two months and it's almost Christmas! Time just keeps on flying by! I remember the days when each day dragged on for waht seemed to be forever. Where did those days go?

In other news, two weekends ago, my wonderful husband and I went to a marriage seminar. (Sacred Marriage by Gary Thomas to be exact.) It was amazing! I seriously think anyone even thinking about getting married in the future should go! Gary has a way of putting things in a different light and thinking about things in a new way, a GODLY way. It was really eye opening.

One of the things that he said that really stuck with me is that marriage is the biggest challenge a person can face spiritually. People never really see it that way. Most people think that they are in love and they will get married and everything will get easier from there. However, things just get harder. It's really true if you think about it. Once you start living with someone, those little things that once attracted you to that person start to get on your nerves. The hard thing is though, that, for a good relationship, you can't make them change. You, yourself, have to learn to live with it and deal with it in a Godly way. That is truely a BIG challenge.

All that being said, Tanner and I are in Dallas celebrating with our family. It's really good to spend time with everyone and have more than just a weekend to be together. Of course, as like every other year, we have all eaten way too much of the many delicious foods that entered into our house for lunch. Not that being too full stops any of us from eating more. It's all just so good! I think, though, that we shall be sent home with many leftovers.. If they survive the long journey back that is.

Speaking of going home, I get to put up our first Christmas tree when we get home! I'm acctually pretty excited. We got a pre-lit, six foot tree for fifty bucks. It was pretty awesome. We got some solid colored ornaments for it, until we fill it up with ornaments that mean more to us, and a nice lighted topper. I'm really excited to put it up. Though I can't decide if I should wait for Tanner to help or just do it myself. I should probably ask his oppinion beofre I do anything. :P

I've acctually gotten several gifts already picked out and ready to be wrapped. It's pretty cool. I've still got a month left and won't have to frantically search for something to get for everyone. Yay!

Well, Keep on keeping on! :)

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Dealing with a Loss

Today is filled with greif and sorrow. Thoughts of what was left undone and what will never come to pass.

My grandmother died last night. Apparently it was just her time. She died in her sleep. My mom called me this morning with the news as she tried not to weep over the phone, to be strong. I couldn't believe it at first. There was nothing to suggest she was going to pass. I can't imagine what my grandpa is going through right now.

Tanner and I had already planned to go to Dallas next weekend for the marriage seminar. I was looking forward to seeing all of my family. Now.. I'm guessing we'll be heading up there sometime this week or this weekend.

I was looking forward to seeing her at Thanksgiving.. and Christmas (or around Christmas time depending on what Tanner and I worked out).. I already had her gift, and I knew she was going to love it. I was looking forward to seeing her at the hospital when my aunt gave birth.. I was looking forward to her seeing my children... So my kids could have a great-grandmother since I didn't get that pleasure because she died soon after my parents got married.

It's funny how life repeats itself.. the same thing that happened to my mom, though probably not in the same time frame, happened to me. My kids will never get to know their great-grandma, just like I didn't get to meet mine. I never wanted that for them. I wanted my grandma to live to see both my sister and I get married. I wanted her to live to see our children. I prayed that she would live that long. I guess God had a different plan.

I wish I could be there for my family. I wish I could hug my parents and hold my sister. I wish I hug my aunts and help my little cousins through this. I know what it's like loosing a grandparent at a young age. My dad's parents died when I was 10 and 11. I know it's going to be so hard on them.

And it just hit me.. she never go to see the pictures from my wedding. Oh the things that were left undone!

I don't want to ask God why. It's not my place. Yet, I find myself  feverishly wanting to cry out and ask why He took her so soon!

If you're reading this, I ask that you keep my family in your prayers. I think this is hard on all of us.. really hard. I'm not sure yet when the funeral is going to be. This is not how I wanted to see my family again. But I can't change that. God has a plan. I just pray he help us all heal quickly. Between this and the news I recived yesterday... it's been a hard week, and I have a feeling that it's going to continue that way. (If you can, pray for someone dear to me. I can't give details.)

I guess there is only one way to go now... forward...

Keep on keeping on.

RIP Grandma. I miss you.


Thursday, September 6, 2012

New city, new home, and a husband!

Yesterday, I moved got into Lafayette, Louisiana, my new home. I married the man I'd always wanted this past Saturday and had an amazing honeymoon out in a cabin amongst nothing but trees outside of Nacogdoches, Texas. It was absolutely amazing. I couldn't be happier. :)

Mom and Dad and Meredith visited us a little when they generously brought Tanner's car to Nacogdoches after filling it with all our stuff. My family is awesome! Both sides. He he! :) Both my parents and his parents have done so much for Tanner and I that I just can't thank them enough. I can't wait to see them all again when we have our Ohio reception for all of his friends and family that couldn't make it to Texas.

As for the condo, well, it's a work in progress. Ha ha! I've just about got everything in the kitchen and that room all organized. Most of the trash is gone from our room. Ha ha! I give Tanner a hard time, but it's not terrible. The closet is a little hard to deal with as the door are three sliding doors, so you can only see a small portion at once. (I think I'm going to have Tanner take at least one of them down.)

I took Tanner lunch at his work and then just spent some time chilling and watching him work. He's working late today, so that helped. It also got me out of the house so I didn't have to think about the chaos of all my stuff I have to unpack. Ugh.

I need to organize the bathroom.. There so much random stuff under the sink. Gotta love men. :) Course it doesn't help that there aren't any drawers. Not set up the best. Oh well. It's a nice condo and I am grateful for it. :) I just have to figure out where to put everything. :P

I can honestly not tell you how happy I am! Despite all the cleaning and organizing and unpacking and craziness. I am so extremely happy! There aren't even words to describe how happy I am! Ah! Now, if Tanner would just get home. :P Ha ha!

Keep on keeping on! :)

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Excitement is in the air!

A lot has gone on in the last few months. Things have been so busy and crazy and AWESOME! I'll just try to summarize everything. :P

So, I came back from Ohio via Louisiana. I helped Tanner move down there for his job. I got him all moved into his condo there and then he took me back here to Dallas. He visited me every weekend after that. My birthday was coming up, but it was on the weekend we were going back up to Ohio to staff Jr. High Week at Camp. So, I had a family birthday party the weekend before.

Well, unbeknownst to me, Tanner was plotting with my parents.

On June 8th, I was taken to a park by my mom, something to consider for any possible future wedding (or so I was led to believe), after getting my hair done. There, Tanner had a picnic waiting for me, much ealier than he should have been there had he left Louisiana when I thought he had. We ate and talked until 8:09pm when he got down on one knee and proposed!

I'M ENGAGED!!!!!!! :D

After that, we had my party and then my parents drove me down to Louisiana so Tanner and I could head up to Ohio for camp. Camp was amazing! I saw God all over the place all the time! It was do cool! And God moved me and worked on me and through me in so many ways! It was the best camp experience I've ever had.

As soon as we got back, we immediately continued the wedding planning. We got registered and everything and then my Dad took me back to Dallas. Since then, we've been planning like crazy. It doesn't seem like it's been that long since then. But apparently it has. We are 18 days out from the wedding. Technicly 17 since today is almost over. :P

17 days...


Needless to say, I am super psyched! As well as my wonderful fiance Tanner. I can not wait to be Mrs. Ellsworth. :D

Soon, I will be walking down the asile. Yay!

Keep on keeping on! :D

Thursday, April 12, 2012

A Simple Update of the Ongoings of My Life.

Well, I'm here in Ohio, again. I just liked it so much I couldn't stay away. Ha ha! It's true I had a job and it was going well, I had a house (though I was hardly over there. No TV or internet puts a damper on things. Ha ha!), I had a car (still do, just not with me), but I got called up here. Where it's 40 degrees. The sarcrifices I make! Just kidding. :P

Nah. There were a lot of reasons for coming up here and there was a lot of thought and prayer and meditation that went into the desicion. I'm am ecstatic to be here and am looking forward to the time I have here. The future has many things in store, and I can't wait to find out what they are!

I'm staffing a Jr. High camp in June, which is exciting! I would have never thought that I would ever staff any kind of camp. But I am really looking forward to it! I feel this calling to work with the youth and this camp is a great way to get going. At least that's what I think anyway. :)

I really see God working around me and within me. I'm different than who I was a few months ago, but in a really good way. I have more confidence and feel like I can do more things. I have put all I have into God hands. He knows what's best for me. I even told him that if being an author was not that path that He wanted me to take, I'd give it up. After which, I felt a great releif. It's funny what you hide from yourself.

Keep on keeping on!

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

It's Beginning.

I read this series of books a little while ago about a time where our world outlawed Christianity. Though not just Christianity, but all religion. It's a crazy concept. Yet, the book was written in 2006 and set in 2012. Now, you would say, "We're not even close!" However, on the other side of the world, where the majority of the population is Muslim, Christians are being killed daily. It's not a new thing either. Things like this have been happening in many areas for a while. However, in the past few years, it has increased by 390 something percent. They are calling it
Within the next century, if our world and nation stay on the course they are currently on, we could be faced with a religious apocalypse. If we don't stand up and do something, Christophobia could be in our back yards sooner than we know. We can not let this go on. There should be no tolerance for this kind of thing, because if we let this continue, we'll all be in danger.
Christophobia is not something people know about. I fear we have hard times ahead of us. We as a people, as a nation, need to stand up for what is pure and right. This can not continue.
Keep on Keeping on,

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Long Distance Valentine's Day

Happy Valentine's day all!

It's Tanner and my first Valentine's day. It's exciting! But as he's in Ohio, it's a little strange. Let me just tell you right now if you didn't already know. Long distance is rough! It's hard, and saddening at times and you just want to be together, but you're miles apart! It does make the relationship stronger though.

But anyway, Tanner called me this morning as he was headed to class and wished me Happy Valentine's Day. Totally made my whole day. I couldn't stop smiling all morning! He he! Even though we are far apart, he still makes me smile and my heart leap with joy. :)

Tanner, I love you and I can't wait until March 2nd and I get to see you! <3

Keep on keeping on,


Sunday, January 29, 2012

Rich Young Ruler? Over-rated.

Today, I was in church, like I always am on Sunday mornings, unless I'm sick, and I was listening to the sermon about the rich, young ruler. And it struck me a little different. I've heard the story a million times, but this time I heard something else. The preacher talked about how when this guy who had everything came up to Jesus and asked what he needed to do to follow Him. After the ten commandments, Jesus tells this man to sell everything he posesses. The preacher said that he was sure that as this guy was walking away, he was slumped in grief. That he was thinking, "That's the one thing I can't do." Of course, Jesus then goes on to say how hard it is for the rich to enter the kingdom of God. It was then that it struck me. I don't want to be a rich young ruler. I would rather have just enough to take care of everything and be humble and content with what I have, than have everything I could have ever dreamed about dreaming about wanting and never be content or worse, lose my soul.

I grew up in a family that had plenty. I was never left wanting. Sure, I didn't think of us as rich, but others did. Now that I live on my own and know what it's like to have to pay bills and wonder if there is going to be enough for everything, I realize that we had it good. My parents and sister still do. But I also realized, I don't want to just be scraping by, but I also don't want to feel like I have more money than I could possibly do anything with. There's a happy medium in there, and I'm determined to find it.

If I do become a best-selling author someday and I am earning bundles and bundles of money, I'm going to find a good use for it. And it's not going to be on some big house or a cooler car or nicer clothes, ect. It's going to go to someone else who needs it more than I do. Who has kids that need new clothes or someone who might be a little short on money to pay the bills and feed themselves that month. I am determined to live in a house just big enough and be content with the blessing God sends my way. Never do I want to be a rich, young ruler.

Keep on keeping on,


Tuesday, January 10, 2012

A New Chapter

Right at this very moment, I am 38,999 feet in the air. That's right. I'm on a plane. With WiFi. How cool is that?! It costed me $5, but it's worth it! Ha ha! Anyway, I am on my way back to Dallas after being in Vancouver and packing my things for five days. Six months I've been in Vancouver, Washington, and I look back and see how much I have grown.

When I got to Vancouver, I had just finished my first year of college. I was taking a step out on my own and, quite to my parents dismay, not going back to school and moving what seems like a bazillion miles away. It was a scary step. I had no car, hardly any money, and no job. But I knew I would be with family, and I hadn't seen my cousin, Ry in over a year. I was with my ex and honestly, on an emotional roller coaster that went hand in hand with that. In three words, I was young. It's funny to look back and see who I was then and who I am now. The change isn't drastic, and it happened little by little, but there is a big change.

Because of my time working at Vancouver Pizza Company and being pretty much out on my own, I found myself. Sure, I still am finding more and more of myself everyday, but I gained clarity in areas that I would never have found had I not left Dallas. (Or at least it would have taken me a very long time if I did.) I have become more solid in my faith and find myself closer to God. I have become more outgoing and more outspoken. I'm no longer the girl who hardly talks and strays away from people. I still have to warm up to people, but I don't just stand in a corner and sew my lips shut. I found myself greeting customers that walked in the door, occasionally seating people, taking food out to tables, and handing customers the pizza they ordered to-go. I goofed around with my fellow co-workers, while diligently doing my job of course, and learned to come up with joking, witty remarks to whatever got thrown at me jokingly. I also became more clear in what I wanted in my future husband. Sure, Eharmony helped with that, but so did my experiences. Eharmony just matched me up with the wonderful man I am with today. Though if it hadn't been for God, we wouldn't have found each other. Nor would any of this have happened. God gets ALL the credit. It is through Him that I get my strength.

It's crazy to look back and see how much I have changed and grown. And I know that I will say the same thing six months from now about who I am today that I am saying about who I was six months ago. And so-on and so-on.

I will start my new job tomorrow at my mom's law firm. I am extremely nervous, but I know that I can do it because God has opened this door and lead me to this decision as he did with the decision to move to Vancouver. He has a plan and I place my trust in Him. I am going to miss my family in Washington dearly, in fact, I already do. But I know I will see them again and I am so grateful for the time that I had with them. I love them all very much.

On a side note, what's really crazy is to think about my future. In five months and five days I will turn 20! I won't be a teen anymore! What's even crazier is that I could be married in three years and by eight years there is a possibility that I could have kids! I'd be 28! (Well, in eight years five months and five days.) It's just crazy! And before anyone gets any wild, crazy ideas, no I do not know when I am getting married or anything else. The possibility of that happening is just there. Ha ha ha! But I mean, if you think about it, it really is just there. I'd be 22. ANYWAY, I'm going off on a tangent about that.. ha ha! The thing is, I don't feel old. I don't feel like in eight years I could possibly be pregnant or have kids. It's just freaky. But those will be chapters of my life to be written later, when the time comes. :)

And so a chapter has ended and a new chapter begins.

Keep on keeping on.