Sunday, August 7, 2011

Perhaps this is for the best.

My heart is broken,
But it's probably better this way.
You know I'll always love you
And that I'll never forget you.
We had a good times and bad times,
But it was a good 2 years, 11 months, and a day.

Maybe there is a future for us
Later down the road.
Maybe when we are more mature,
When we both have our priorities straight,
When we both know exactly what we want.
But for now I'm just going to try and move on,
Find out what's best for me.

Unfortunately, if you think about it,
Right now it wouldn't have worked anyway.
If we kept this going and gotten married
And my writing took off,
I'd go away on book tours
And the not talking would drive me insane.

So, I know it hurts now,
But I just couldn't take the silence any more.
I put my heart and my best into the relationship.
But I just wasn't getting much back.
I can't handle a relationship where I feel disconnected.
I know texting or calling or Skyping doesn't help much,
But it's better than nothing.
Every little bit helps.

So, again, know that I love you
And that I'll never forget you.
I know where I am supposed to be right now.
There are too many opportunities to ignore here.
So, maybe this is better in the long run.

Goodbye is hard,
But sometimes it's the right thing.
There might be a future for us,
But I can't focus on that right now.
Hopefully, we can still be friends,
Because you are an amazing and sweet and loyal and great guy.

We can both move on,
We'll both survive,
And some how
Something GOOD will come out of this.

1 comment:

  1. My dear, sweet Elisabeth ("L.B.")-
    I know it can be hard. I think, from the tone of your poem, that you are handling this very well. I also find it ironic and somewhat poetically fitting that you and I both had to move to Washington to gain a little clarity on matters such as these. Know that I'm keeping you in my prayers (as I do every day), and my constant prayer for you is that God brings you all the best in His perfect timing.
    I love you much, LB! Call me sometime if you want!