Status: Sigh... :D

So.... There's this boy.... Hahahahahahahahaha! I know. You're thinking, "Oh boy. Here we go again." And I can't say anything to that. But anyway. I get to finally meet this amazing guy in person in 17 days! I'm uber excited!!! He lives in Ohio and we've been skypeing and texting and talking for like two months or something. And I just have to say that he is completely amazing!! I haven't felt like this in a long time! Which is almost a little sad to say. But I'm uber happy now and that is kinda what matters, right? So far, Mom and Dad seem to like him, which is good. I have a good feeling about this. Like this may never end... If you know what I mean. But I'm getting ahead of myself. Hehe! I'll keep ya updated. Haha!

Keep on, keepin on!

Halloween Night

Shadows dance all night
Making you think that nothing is alright.
Things are scattered all across the floor
And there is a creak from the door.
Sounds are coming from everywhere
And you don't look unless you dare
For you don't know the sight
And it might give you a terrible fright.
You are becoming terrorized
And then you realize,
This is Halloween night.

Wake to the Call

Dead. Zombiefied.

So gone you can't be recognized,

Can no longer be reconciled

In this battle of the vile

And pain

And shame.

We've become nothing,

Not waking

To the noise.

But there's a voice

Filled with power.

It's our maker,

Our creator,

Calling us to remember,

To wake from the void,

From the blackness that's employed.

He calls us to join Him

In this place He calls heaven.

He says we're forgiven

Because of the blood he has given.

He breaths into us life

So we can avoid the knife

Of eternal damnation

In a place where evil stations.

He tells us to wake up

To see what He has done.

Clueless

You're asking all these questions

About grace and salvation,

Longing for the answers from this Christian nation.

And I have this knawing notion

That we simply go through the motions.

I wish I could stand up here voicin'

That I've got answers to your searchin'

That I know what I'm doin'

But I ain't got a clue and that ain't lyin'.

Thoughts of the day

Don't you hate when you start something and have to end it, knowing it was a bad idea in the first place? Because then you wonder what it would have been like if you'd kept it going, made it work, even with all the signs and the knowledge from the past telling you it would never work no matter what you did. That haunting feeling just sticks with you and weeps into your dreams, telling you it couldcantve worked and you could have been happy. It's crazy and stupid and illogical and your brain keeps telling you that, but you can't shake the feeling. You don't know what it is or even why you're thinking those things and you just want them to go away. Unfortunately, its not that easy... But it will pass in time. You just have to stick it out and forget about it. Forget about the dreams and the ridiculous hopes and move on. It doesn't matter what happened or why or when. One must just keep moving forward and looking forward to the future. Because the future has something in store for you that will be a billion times better than what you could ever hope for or dream of.